Searching…

I’ve been searching for something lately.

How?

By reading tens of wedding blogs these days. I did find what I’ve been searching for, but, then i find my self even feel worse than before.

I’ve been searching for something that can assure me that a marriage is another (my) next best thing. I found it is, in those blogs that i’ve read.

But then I find my self worrying lots of others thing. Because instead of being sure, I really feel doubt about everything.

Me..

Him..

Us..

My Family..

His Family..

Our Plan..

It seems like a scatter plan. While I also have another worryness about my study. I dont know whether it would be a good news or a bad one if that U** offer me a place there. .

If it is, I’m not sure having a longer and longer distance relationship..

A-once-more break-up?well…

Sometimes i really want to throw it up.

and to take my head off..

Dear Allah..

I really need help. Please, show me the (right) way. I absolutely feel utterly lost…