Back for Good

It’s been a month since I finally back here.

For good.

I’ve passed the comprehensive examinations and I’ve got my study status completed with final CGPA 3,89. I’m glad that I graduate with such result, Alhamdulillah..

Ramadhan is here also.

This is the first Ramadhan spent without my beloved grandma. This coming Idul Fitri also will be the first one celebrated without her. I miss her terribly..

Beside as the first, this Ramadhan also might be the last one that I spend, um,,can we say… with my (biological) family?

Cause, if everything is all settled Insya Allah, I will spend the next Idul Fitri with a larger family. The new and extended one.

I feel a bit anxious thinking about that. I don’t know. I don’t know how it feels about spending Idul Fitri with somebody else family, although, it will also become my family. I can’t imagine of not being with my family during that particular day. Really, It gives me some heart-ache.

I know it sounds so shallow or what. But, the closer it is to the big day, I’m getting more afraid. Afraid of so many things.

I’m not the one who really keen on changes.

Yet, this year, I have to keep up with several.

I just only hope and pray that all these changes will lead me to be a better person, better life, and more blessings. Amin..