The Pain of 2012

I really don’t know how to start this.
Had my engagement on September,30.
I went for Hajj on October,19.
Returned 15 days earlier without having Arba’in in Madinah. Arrived on 15 November.

Then, I had the biggest loss of lifetime.

I had two before.
My grandma on Friday, 30 March
My uncle on Monday, 16 April

Recently, I lost… my mother.

My beloved mother. Friday, 30 November.

While my wedding is only two weeks away.

It’s …… effingly breaks my heart. like .. I don’t know.

Don’t know that there’s still a life with her gone, forever..