The Battle of Returning

The decision to return was (also) a battle between the right over easy.

We dont have any obligations to return. Went here by our own expense, no official agreement with any places.

We got our visa extended for free by the government to another year even several offers to stay for good. People here kept questioning our decision to return.

It took months until I fully accept the idea. We’re about to lose all the safe and secured environment and heading to unknown jungle. I once again might return to the high tension of the first three months of first lockdown. Even worse. We’re about to lose all the support receieved for the little girl in her school. We leave when the vaccine is few weeks away.

I have many tantrums until this point. I am selfish. Judging for months about the way the official handling the crisis, oh COME ON. I am sick of this shitty government.

We’re about to lose many while having a choice to choose the opposite.

It started changing when I read one of the doctor’s email reply saying his old hospital at home was still struggling with the pandemic and they could use another help from him, then again, whether I like it or not, it’s the only right thing and reason.

” Who you are is defined by what you’re willing to struggle for,” said Mark Manson. A page of Brene Brown Dare to Lead has a word to describe it.

“Integrity is chooing courage over comfort. It’s choosing what’s right over what’s fun, fast, or easy and it’s about practising your value not just professing them”.

But maybe, the most important thing, above everything, it’s about putting the utmost trust to the one who decides all affairs. Allah has been taking great care of us everywhere. He will do the same, no matter what situation we have to deal with anywhere in this world.

Taking this option is about doing the right thing so we wont look back with regrets. In whatever price we have to pay in the future.

Bismillah. bismillah. bismillah.