(A draft saved on September 15th)
No long words could do the justice to describe what it took to finally secured a proper recording to be submitted for the exam.
From eyeing distinction as a target to finally settle, “let’s just aim for pass” then.
Started practicing the very first song on August 2022. Fast forward a year later, no single recording was decent enough to be submitted.
The list of recordings captured were only small part of hundreds that we did since last April.
Finally got the one we had been waiting for the past five months(!!). Alhamdulillah.
We haven’t even submitted the video, but this is the closure for all the efforts done in grade 3 ABRSM.
When I think we deserve certain result for our hardwork, the reality snapped back harshly by showing countless messy and bad recordings we got along the way. The harder we tried, the more frustrating we were.
We finally got it when we finally on the ‘Que Sera Sera’ mode.
For someone who has so little patience, this is my daily training.
Not just about piano practice/anything, but to take whatever it takes during the process of doing everything in life and be patient to accept any results which is outside my control.
Still far from mastering it, my face showed it all when things don’t go according to what I expect.
Distinction for Grade 3 ABRSM.
It took a lot of Astaghfirullah to achieve this and a simple silent Alhamdulillah when we received it.
It was leisure four months to achieve a high level of distinction 147/150 for grade 1.
It was tragically twisted seven months to achieve (only) merit 124/150 for grade 2 exam.
Spent more than frustrating twelve months to return to distinction bracket of 133/150 for grade 3 exam.
Proof that life is not getting easier,
Your efforts matter,
but there will be time to surrender and let it go to The Decider, because the end result is never ours.
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