Blanakan Beach, Subang, 2008
Kampung Bahru Road, SG, 2008 : Fleurette
Changi Airport, SG, 2010 : Gabor
Blue Mosque, Turkey, 2010 : Skechers
Karen’s, Senopati , 2011: Gabor
FMBK Shelter, UPM, 2012 : Reebok
FBMK Shelter, UPM, 2011 :L’emotion
March had brought its sadness
while April followed
now it’s May’s turn
to bring another unexpected (not good) news
which might change the plan. and already give small quake in our heart.
Dear Allah, may You will keep leading us the way ahead. May another plan of Yours will only do us better than what we have planned.
and may the spring comes sooner than later.
Bigger,stronger,wider heart and courage extremely needed to go on…
I don’t know whether this is real or not..
we have another sad news : Om Eko passed away today.
Two weeks in a row. The grief over my grandma hasn’t yet recovered, then this one feels like …. I don’t know….
My mum flew to gorontalo this morning, while i’ll be back once again tomorrow.
I really haven’t any courage to go back there. Twice in a row, being in the airport only makes me cry. I wish i just could stay.
I remember my first post on this year.
I remember clearly stated this year would be an exciting and memorable year due to some (big) events ahead.
Then, I was wrong. and right.
I think exciting is a wrong term, while memorable, yes, it is indeed.
I feel like I’m attacked when I’m unprepared.
And I’ll go on while some pieces of my heart are taken away
Forever…
….that you’re..lost?
Because she’s no longer here.
It still feels so weird.
its the fourth day
and my tears are still only mili-second away..
No words can explain how it feels when you wake up in the morning then there is still sunshine while you know that she’s no longer here and there to greet you home.
I really can cry hard only by thinking of that in a second.
There will be no saturday visit anymore
There will be no stay overnight and sleep next to her
No longer those comments and angry-compassion face of telling me to eat more
There will be no phone-talk hearing her praying for me with tremble voice
I just want to hug, smell her lovely scent, and kiss her goodbye for the last time, which is now impossible…
And what could be worse than not having proper chance for saying goodbye to your most-beloved ones.
I don’t know that going home (tomorrow) can have any other feeling beside joy and excitement.
My head aches so bad thinking of it. Not found her to greet me home. Forever.
For the first time, I don’t know whether it’s better being at home or staying here.
(Maybe) from now on, everything will never be the same again…
I couldn’t be more suffering of being far away from home than today.
It’s losing the last chance of meeting one of the most important person in my life.
I can’t help and stop crying from the morning my phone rang and received that news and worse, i can not fly home. it breaks my heart so badly.
I want to hug her
She always have lovely smell
and she always cry everytime we talk on the phone
I really want to be there. The feeling of not be able of meeting her and touch her really killing me.
Nek, Kak Indi sayang nenek.
Sayaaaang sekali.
If only you could wait for me a bit..
I really want to hug you for the last time
Thank you for everything, for my 27 years being with you.
Kak Indi sayang nenek. sayang sekali…
I have been reading so many blogs today, whether those wedding blogs or travel blogs. Travel blogs have been one of my addictions. I don’t know why the idea of going abroad always amuse me.
My family is not an extremely rich one, we had vacation sometimes, but hardly going too far. Puncak was our most frequent visit, since there was my dad’s office villa there. So, going abroad by plane was seemed so far.
My first experience of flying in an aeroplane was back in 1994. I remember the exact date, it was June, 5th, 1994. What was so exciting, is not domestic flight, but an international flight.
I flew with Emirates. One of the newest middle-east airline which now is one of the finest and favorites one.
Where to go?Singapore?Malaysia?Australia?No.
We went to England!:D
It felt so awesome for this 10-years-old little girl. We, I, my mother, my sister, and my brother, were going to visit my father who pursued his master degree in one of the best university in the world, University of Manchester.
We visited him during summer, for 2 months (What a great vacation!). I remembered we took night flight, with Jakarta-Singapore-Colombo-Dubai-Manchester route. It was 18 hours flight, with 5 hours transit in Dubai. The flight was great. The foods were all delicious. All the steward and stewardess were very nice. They kept giving us toys, bags, koala dolls, i loved it all. I still keep the bag from my first flight:)
I still remember clearly that we arrived at the airport and my dad had waited for us,then we went to the apartment by that black taxi cab, as in the movie. I couldn’t help smiling along the road from the airport until we arrived in the apartment. It felt as if your heart is going to explode because the excitement.
In our apartment, my dad had prepared gifts for each of us, yes, each of us, including my mother. He prepared me and my sister with a backpack and small bag. It was red backpack and a very cute small bag, which i still keep it until now.
I enjoying my 2 months there a lot. A lot. We stay in an apartment in granby row room 504 (I really have good memory on this). So, what were we doing during those days?
Let me names several.
We were …
going around the city
eating ice cream in many parks
waiting for bus number 81 to Piccadilly Center
going to precinct Centre by walk and counting steps along the pavement (I loved those pavement) to buy postcards.Oh, I sent the postcards to my best friends, (Almh.) Arum and I didn’t remember who another one, and i got the reply when i was still there!It was so cool receiving a letter with your name in the envelope as if we stayed permanently there,hehe.
The very same building as i rememberPicture taken from University of Manchester
going to University of Manchester and the Museum of Manchester, buying some very nice stickers, shopping in debenhams, my sister and I were very keen of Polly Pocket, we’d been visiting toys r’ us almost every time we went there, and finally buy some of it. (I don’t remember how exactly we paid for it,hehe)
doing groceries shopping in either Tesco or Indian Shop. I remembered how i disliked going to that Indian shop because it was so smelly, so i just waited outside, but going there is compulsory, since my dad had bought us the backpack so it can be filled with those groceries stuff:))
In other way, I loved going to Tesco. It’s quite far from the city, but i enjoyed the trip there. We passed those houses with the maroon brickswall and the chimneys, as Enid Blyton books told me. so, no complaining. Beside, Tesco is smells nice, and we had ice cream there:D
Oh, i remembered one thing that we (me and my siblings) always loved doing daily. We went to the park nearby the apartment. It has big bottle statue and we loved climbing it and playing there, and run-racing with the train passed-by in the railway bridge. We just pretended as if we were chasing the train,hehe. What a silly kids.
I found the picture of the park!!Our apartment just two blocks away
During our 2 month there, we also visited other cities. We went to London, by train!So, before King Cross station is famous because of platform 9 3/4 in Harry Potter, I have been there,in Manchester-London trip. We stayed for 3 days in London. We visited Big Ben, Tower Bridge, Trafalgar Square, etc.
We saw the guard-changing ceremony in Buckingham Palace also, it was so interesting. I keep wondering what Queen Elizabeth doing inside,hehe. I remembered we couldn’t visit tower of London and Madame Tussaud because it was summer holiday, so the queue was so long. Oh!We were riding on the red double-decker also:D
We also went to several cities like Blackburn (here i bought those blue Clark shoes with only 2 pounds, or Rp 7000,- ,at that time currency)! From then, I love Clark shoes, but it’s quite pricey now:(
Sheffield, Bath, Harrogate, and Buxton were another cities we visited. I didn’t remember clearly, but i remembered of having a-lake-side-picnic with the view of mountain and stone house like one in Little House on The Prairie book:)
Actually, we had also our Benelux visa to visit Netherland, Belgium, and Luxembourg, but, unfortunately, i had chicken pox there, so we cancelled the trip:(
There was also my starting point of learning English. From then, i love English subject and so eager learn by my self, from either books or movie.
Wow, what a long post. I think it is the first time i do really writing something here. It’s always heart-warming, memory traveling to the past:)
Manchester was my first love, which leads me to more places, more journeys, and always keep longing to going back there later, someday, Insya Allah. Amin.
so, I’ll see you later;)
You said my next goal is to achieve 20 posts. Well, this is my 20th post then;)
I have nothing to write. Just to say i’ve accomplished the goal set!
I can’t remember when you weren’t there
When I didn’t care for anyone but you
I swear we’ve been through everything there is
Can’t imagine anything we’ve missed
Can’t imagine anything the two of us can’t do
Through the year, you’ve never let me down
You turned my life around, the sweetest days I’ve found
I’ve found with you … Through the years
I’ve never been afraid, I’ve loved the life we’ve made
And I’m so glad I’ve stayed, right here with you
Through the years
I can’t remember what I used to do
Who I trusted whom, I listened to before
I swear you’ve taught me everything I know
Can’t imagine needing someone so
But through the years it seems to me
I need you more and more
Through the years, through all the good and bad
I knew how much we had, I’ve always been so glad
To be with you … Through the years
It’s better everyday, you’ve kissed my tears away
As long as it’s okay, I’ll stay with you
Through the years
Through the years, when everything went wrong
Together we were strong, I know that I belonged
Right here with you … Through the years
I never had a doubt, we’d always work things out
I’ve learned what love’s about, by loving you
Through the years
Through the years, you’ve never let me down
You’ve turned my life around, the sweetest days I’ve found
I’ve found with you … Through the years
It’s better everyday, you’ve kissed my tears away
As long as it’s okay, I’ll stay with you
Through the years!
Kenny Rogers-Through The Years
I love it. From the very first hearing, back in my junior high school. Each words. I can’t help smiling when i’m reading those words and humming this song.
It has all the best of a song can be. The lyrics, the melody, as well as the singer. And most of all, it is absolutely heart warming.
Definitely my all time favorite:)