Every minute passed toward that particular date always make me feel hard to catch enough air to breathe. Yeah, I’m exaggarating this, i know. But, seriously, it is. I want that coming late as much as i want it coming soon.
I have tens of worryness and i feel like to release it as soon as possible. Do my best and may Allah would help the rests, as always. Amin.
Bon courage!
What worries you, masters you. – John Locke-
a passion of mine
one thing that i’m (sure) good (great, one day) in it
my mood booster..
the best cure of my worst broken heart..
the cure to my asthma..
my second home..
and, as one said to me :
a talent which might never make you a rich one
and i answer sincerely,
but it surely makes me a happiest one
In the end, i believe a happy me will enrich everything. Amin
Courses..
Kolej..
Money..
Food..
Limitation of time..
Future plans..
Experiencing those hard months (once more)..
Summer is over while Autumn’s coming
Let see how wonderful it is going to be..
Dear Allah, please help me..
Welcome, and please, be nice..
My very first wishlist destination.
Then..
next..
Well, Shall I?
It is indeed..
Life truly happens along this year.
I got the acceptance and have been pursuing my master degree abroad. Have been safely passed my first semester with good result. Alhamdulillah, eventough it was too far from easy, really. Those hard 5 months almost killed me sometimes. The loneliness, the assignments, every single thing i miss back home. hard.
And after 4 months of vacation (what a nice year!), I am heading back to my real life marathon there. Hope my second term will be as good as the first one. Amin.
As for the private stuff, well, it is runninng (well) and i hope it will keep running (better and better). more prayers each day for everything happen ahead. Hopefully..
I’ve been searching for something lately.
How?
By reading tens of wedding blogs these days. I did find what I’ve been searching for, but, then i find my self even feel worse than before.
I’ve been searching for something that can assure me that a marriage is another (my) next best thing. I found it is, in those blogs that i’ve read.
But then I find my self worrying lots of others thing. Because instead of being sure, I really feel doubt about everything.
Me..
Him..
Us..
My Family..
His Family..
Our Plan..
It seems like a scatter plan. While I also have another worryness about my study. I dont know whether it would be a good news or a bad one if that U** offer me a place there. .
If it is, I’m not sure having a longer and longer distance relationship..
A-once-more break-up?well…
Sometimes i really want to throw it up.
and to take my head off..
Dear Allah..
I really need help. Please, show me the (right) way. I absolutely feel utterly lost…
I stop running
But i feel tired…
I stop swimming
But I feel like drowning..
I have what I’ve asked for
But I feel like getting rid of it..
I’m an audience
But I feel exhausted as if I’m the performer..
I’m 26 and I feel nothing..
is one of my favorite words in the world…
is a place where your heart is…
is the place where u know u belong…
is a place to relax while the world moves along…
is a place filled with sun shine…
with rooms filled by the people u love inside…
Then, can u just choose a ‘house’ over a ‘home’?
Mencintai itu.. kadang mengumpulkan segala tabiat menyebalkan dari seseorang yang kau cintai..
Memakinya..
Merasa tak sanggup lagi menjadi yang terbaik untuknya dan berpikir tak ada lagi jalan kembali..
Tetapi tetap saja kau tak sanggup benar-benar meninggalkannya..
(Muhammad, sebuah novel)
A Penny for My Pensieve 