I am a huge supporter of homeschooling but our situation doesn’t really suit for doing it fully. So I take half of the schooling while still sending my daughter to formal school whose values so far is aligned with what we preach and practice.
This end of semester’s reflection is quite different than the previous ones where it was more sentimental.
This semester I took studying more seriously by implementing regular night study with or without tests. This is more about to reduce the headache due to transition from lower grade levels to upper grades which academic demands are jumping significantly than my passion for teaching and learning.
At the end of this semester, we registered her to a CognitiveMap test in one of the institutions in Jakarta which is also globally renowned. This is not an IQ test, but I think it gives better insight about how the current brain of the child abilities. It test five brain muscles : vision, auditory, sensory motor, focus, and emotional processing.
I searched why these five and found a journal that explains it well. It has been determined that neuroplasticity occuring in childhood brain is mainly related to these five aspects.
Other than insightful, this test result is quite useful to decide and understand more about how she learns best and which area she needs to improve.
I often wonder will I do differently if we didn’t receive any diagnosis? Will I try this much if she is one without any specific conditions? Will I be less worried about her?
I am not sure about the answer. One of my strength which can also be my weakness is, I always take everything seriously. Especially if it’s something that gives significant impact to my life and future.
I made list and notes rigorously.
I read intensely and extensively.
I nag The One who decides all affairs regularly and continuously.
I often wonder whether it’s a blessing or a curse to be this stubborn about something that I think it’s right.
What could soften me a bit is certain phrases from my readings :
« Mothers/parents matter. But, they are not everything ».
Your efforts matter.
But, the end result is never yours.
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